If you've ever bothered to read my archive blogs, you'll note that the vast majority of my moans and gripes have not just been about about my love life, but the lack there of. For months and months (possibly even a year or two) I have been so lonely, wondering if anyone out there would ever fall in love with me again or even show me the slightest bit of attention for that matter. Truly, I cannot begrudge the firefighter because he is truly a good guy. Shitty in relationships in my opinion, but never once did we fight or argue and I am indeed a better person for having known him. The divorced guy can suck my balls and Dante is a whole different animal, but one that I still love as much as I hate. Now there is Nick. I hate to jump ahead without at least telling the few good stories that I have to tell about us first, but what the hell, you'll find out sooner or later anyway.
Nick and I have been dating for about two months now, his daughter (who is very sweet and polite by the way) is slowly but surely warming up to me. I have come to discover that yes, he is indeed can be pompous and more than a little cocky, he is also extremely romantic, sweet, funny, thoughtful, caring and dare I say it (maybe too) in touch with his feminine side. More stories about Nick later, but the gist of this is that I am exclusively dating Nick at this point. I know, I know.
So I'm at work today and I have to run next door to track down some paperwork. If you're not up to speed, the office next door to where I currently work is where I got laid off from last year. Irony: That office is the biggest client of the law firm I now work for. Hilarious isn't it? Anyway, so I'm next door and I see a friend of mine that I used to work with and hadn't seen in a few months. Now this guy here: super fuckin hot. Like dirty, nasty, almost wrong at work fantasies about this guy. God he is good looking. He was a bodybuilder at one time, blue eyes, a little on the shorter side, clean shaven, clean cut dirty blond hair and just plain gorgeous. All of this aside, he was married to the same woman for 20 years (he's mid 40's), has three kids so way off limits. To be fair, I was with Dante and would never have dreamed of cheating on him, but this guy was the nice day dream from time to time. Anyway, the last time we worked together everything was status quo for him, but I had heard in December that he and his wife were having problems, but didn't think much about it (firefighter was flaming back up if you will). So today he comes over to the office where I am working (did I mention I happened to be on my knees at this time going through files? Can you hear the porn music in the background?) we talk for a few minutes and I notice he's lost a little weight. I ask if he's ok, and he says "Well you know what's going on right?" I say no and he reaches out his hand and says "Come up here so I can tell you about it". He pulls me up and tells me that he moved out in December, in January the wife had hired a realtor to sell the house and served him with divorce papers. Ouch. What can you say man? He was there when Dante and I split up and that whole ugly scene so I totally get it, but still, what is the right thing to say? So we talk for a little longer and I say I have to get back to the law office. As I go to leave he sorta steps in front of me and says "Before you go, I was wondering if you would like to go to dinner or out for drinks sometime. You have always intrigued me Mia." SHIT! SERIOUSLY? I pick up his hands in mind and tell him that I am beyond flattered, but I've recently started seeing someone and it's getting sorta serious etc. He smiled and said that he wished he would have asked me sooner, but if I am ever interested to give him a call...
Wondering why I said no? Because not only do I not want to be in the middle of a possibly messy divorce and be a step mom to three kids, but because I think I am really starting to care for Nick...
P.S. Bevie ~ I really enjoy your commentary. If you would like to share a little more about yourself or even share your blog, that would be awesome. Thanks for coming back and really, there are some good stories coming up in the next few days :)
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Hi Mia.
Been away from my computer.
I know what it's like to be lonely, so I relate to that. I also relate to how it feels when someone is interested.
You have a lot of things going for you. That these guys clamor for you is proof enough that you are sexy. But you are more than that. You're what I like to call "A Real Person". It comes through in your writing. You have charm, and I think that's why. You're real. You have great value.
You also seem to more and more be taking control of your life. I'm glad. I have the sense that five or ten years ago you would have done things differently than now. Maybe not. That's part of the fun of meeting someone new. Learning who they are.
Knowing what hurt is like, and knowing you have suffered it before, I still tend to worry over you like a mother hen. That just goes with caring, I guess.
I won't spend up your blog space talking about me, but you are more than welcome to visit any of my blogs. I am currently running five. That being said, I will now take up a lot of your blog space by telling you a little about my blogs.
One is pretty much about cats, and very little about me. It's just for fun. Others who have cats have added their cats to the "Alley Cat Walk" and taken the test to find out what kind of cat they would be. (I'm a snowshoe, by the way.)
That one can be found at, Cat in the Buff.
I have two blogs devoted to my writing. One is more generic and one focuses on my epic fantasy series.
These can be found at, SOF-The People (epic specific) and The Great Sea (general writing).
My next blog is the one cloest to what you are doing here, but it's still a different style. I'm not always following current events in my life. Often I am reflecting on past events. But it probably reveals more about me than any of the five.
This one is, A Voice in the Wind.
Based on what you've written, I'm guessing the last blog probably isn't one you care to spend a lot of time on. But I'll leave that to you. It's where I talk about my faith, and that's just not for everyone. For one thing, people doing a lot of God-talk tend to sound condemming and generally judgmental. I assure you, Mia, I am not that way. Anyway, I try not to be. My condemnations are reserved for religious hypocrisy, of which I often find myself guilty.
But, if you are interested, here is the site, Faith in Forgiveness.
Again, I'm thinking for starters you may want to choose A Voice in the Wind. But any you want. You can post comments to me there, or here, and we can talk about whatever. You're more courageous than I. You've talked openly about your sex life. I'm too inhibited to do that. At least, now. Maybe someday. [haha]
But whatever the topic, I'll try to accomodate. And if I ever offend, just let me know. I assure you, it will have been by accident.
You take care now.
Bevie
Happy Easter, Mia. Hope you have a great day.
What's happened to you? I'm getting worried.
Very concerned now. April's almost over and there's been no sign of you.
Are you okay?
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